It's been a while again.  The last few months have been tough.  I think I have figured out that my depression is a seasonal thing.  I have really found a pattern.  It hits worst in February and then is bad for about 2 months and then I slowly start to feel better around end of April / beginning of May.  Now that it's June I am feeling almost normal.  This year it was not a mood problem but rather an energy / motivation issue.  I was really sluggish this time round.  I would go to work and then crash on the couch or go right up to bed on the worse days.  My hubby's had it rough.  He doesn't say so but I know it's been difficult at times.  I am just so glad I've made it through again.  About a month ago, I found out some bad news that my doctor, who had gone on leave, was not coming back to her practise.  I was so disappointed.  I just love this doctor and I have been through all of this with her and I just couldn't imagine starting all over again with somebody new.  I am still seeing the other doctor (the one that does the counseling) about once a week but will be going to twice a month starting later this month.  It's been a good experience and he has helped a lot but I still feel like a need a lot more help.  One very alarming thing I have noticed is that when I'm in my low times, I am very calm.  I guess I just don't have the energy to get worked up about stuff.  But now that I feel better, I find I'm starting to nag more and yell at the kids more and be very critical with Josh.  I've even yelled at the cat lately!    I wonder why that is.  The counseling is supposed to be helping that - the anger, etc.  Why is it that when I feel better, there's more anger?  Hmmmm...something to ponder on for a while.  So other than that, there hasn't been too much going on in my life.  My work changed the location of our office about 2 months ago.  We had to vacate the last place because the company we were borrowing the space from needed it - they were expanding.  It was quite a lesson in trusting God for His provision.  For the longest time it looked like nothing was out there for us - at least not in the price range that a charity can afford.  Then my boss found a place in a former school building and I hated it.  It made me feel so awful from the first time I walked into there.  I just had this total "NO!" reaction inside me.  My boss was so excited that he found something and then I had to tell him how I felt.  That was not an easy situation, let me tell you.  It caused quite a bit of tension.  I told him that I thought that God was telling me this is NOT the place and he said that God was telling him is WAS the place.  Such a quandry!  Well, our CEO in Romania basically had the final decision and he said if I felt uncomfortable with working there (I'm the only paid employee), then we were definitely not taking the space.  So that settled it but that made the tension so bad between my boss and me.  We usually get along well really well so this was unusual.  Then for the longest time, nothing came up and I was feeling worse and worse - even though I just knew we made the right decision.  But my boss is one of those "fix it NOW" types and it was really hard on him waiting and waiting.  Anyway, to make a long story longer, we put out the word and asked everyone to pray harder than ever and then voila!  All of a sudden, through one of the board members, we get an offer for an office space that was just miraculous!  It's 5 minutes from home (if the traffic's slow!), it is bigger than the old place, it's got adequate storage space (this is important because we get donations of goods as well as money), we got a super cheap deal on rent, and the good points go on.  What a great answer to prayer.  {Can't thank ya enough, Lord!} 

Well now!  First nothing for months and months and then blogger-diarrhea!  Well, I do have to quit soon but I absolutely HAVE to share one bit of amazing news!  My brother and sister in law have been wanting to adopt this little girl named Aaliya for about a year now and last week they were informed that they have (finally!) been selected to be her parents!  So that means I am officially going to be a TANTE!!!  Whooooohoooooo!!!  I'm very excited and can't wait to meet her in person.  I have to wait to get permission to post her pic from her parents and then if they allow it, I will post a pic soon.  She is just the sweetest little girl.  Seriously!

Ok, I'm done now!  Whew!  Congrats to all those who got through the whole post!